My personal library

Martin Kaptein in a Library

This page features the most essential and valuable writings to me personally. Hence this page doesn't constitute my entire library but rather serves as an introduction to it, as well as simultaneously introducing myself. Direct links to all of the writings are provided for reference - like a real library, as well as my own short introductions.

Please be aware that this page is international and contains links to literature in many different languages, all languages I speak and in translations I prefer - for one reason or another.


Isaak Sirin

Absolutely timeless reflections have been written by Isaak Sirin (Isaac of Nineveh) (преподобный Исаак Сирин Ниневийский), which serve as a breathtaking introduction into the mysticism of Eastern Christianity. In his writings he teaches us to look at the world as a school and learn to have admiration even for the tiniest details of our everyday lives.1


Zhang Lu (1464–1538), Depiction of mountains, China during the Ming dynasty

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Introducing Taosim, 道教 (Dàojiào) is an almost impossible task (just read the first chapter of Tao te Ching and you will see why). All of the Taoist texts bellow are attempts at translating the untranslatable Traditional Chinese language. These texts greatly shaped my own philosophy and approach to life, like for example my way of teaching music ("teaching without talking"). The translation of the most famous Taoist Writing, 道德经 (dàodé jīng) by 老子 (lǎozi), which I prefer, is the German translation by Richard Wilhelm.2

An old Chinese text, dealing with the functioning of the human soul and eternal life, which, when coupled with the Christian teachings of the Eastern Orthodox Church, becomes quite easy to understand.3 The translator, who is also Richard Wilhelm, didn't exclude the possibility, that the original Chinese author of the following text was indeed influenced by early Christianity.

Zhuangzi, 南华真经 (nánhuā zhēnjīng) (German: Das wahre Buch vom südlichen Blütenland) is next to the aforementioned Tao te Ching one of the most important texts of the Taoist philosophy. It features a collection of tales and stories that help us to get a closer grip on the Taoist' way of thinking.4

Last but not least, there is a book that absolutely cannot be omitted, it's the famous 易經 (Yì jīng), the Book of Changes.5


Scriabin Portrait

The following book by Leonid Sabaneev (Reminiscences of Scriabin) directly sparked my interest towards the composer Alexander Scriabin.6 A speciality of this book is that it is not a tedious biography but rather is a very entertaining read. This book was even one of the reasons I founded the Scriabin Club, a place for conversations about Art and Life.

Scene from Tarkovsky's 1979 movie "Stalker"

For any person interested in Art I can highly recommend Sculpting in Time by the famous movie director Andrey Tarkovsky, here included both in Russian as well as in English.7 His views on art, its connection to spirituality and religion, its role in society and some of the dangerous tendencies of modernism are an important eye opener for all people even remotely interested in Arts. I might as well add in the same breath that my favourite movie of all time is his 1979 movie Stalker (Сталкер).


Painting of Dostoevsky by Vasily Perov

If asked what my favourite books of the fiction genre is, I would answer it is The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoevsky.8 To introduce it in a short paragraph isn't possible, but in short: This book has everything. Even characterizing it as fiction wouldn't do it fully justice, because in its own way it exposes the reality of human behaviour and humans' tormented souls that desperately require meaning, simultaneously with surgical precision and unmatched elegance, especially in its original language. For me personally it has been of very great influence in my own journey towards a more meaningful existence. Believe it or not, Dostoevsky even references Isaak Sirin9.

Dschuang Dsi Schmetterlingstraum Zhuangzi Butterfly Dream

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One of my favourite German writers from the period of the Sturm und Drang is Friedrich Schiller. In my eyes he has a deeper intuition for human psychology, masterfully incorporated in a subliminal way and transcending the cultural clichés of his time. His works have an Shakespearean element, and in their dramaturgy sometimes feel very "Russian": Unsurprisingly in his Brothers Karamazov Dostoevsky often hints to Schiller's The robbers (Die Räuber).10

Roerich Painting, referencing Lovercraft's At the mountains of madness

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A less philosophically demanding, but definitely no less captivating read, are most of HP Lovercraft's works. After the inclusion of all the above literature, their place on this list might seem surprising. However, next to understanding life, books sometimes can also be used for entertainment, and this definitely entertainment of highest quality, while also highlighting the beauties of the English language. The picture from up above is by Nicholas Roerich, whose paintings Lovecraft also references in my favourite novel of his - At the Mountains of Madness11.

Book links


English: Isaac of Nineveh - Mystic Treatises (Translation by A. J. Wensinck) (pdf, source). Russian / Русский: Преподобный Исаак Сирин Ниневийский - Слова подвижнические (pdf, source).


German / Deutsch: Laotse - Tao Te King (webpage, pdf). English: Lao-Tzu - Tao te Ching (pdf).


German / Deutsch: Geheimnis der Goldenen Blüte (Das Buch von Bewusstsein und Leben) (pdf). English: The secret of the Golden Flower, a Chinese Book of Life (pdf).


German / Deutsch: Zhuangzi, Das wahre Buch vom südlichen Blütenland (pdf). English: Zhuangzi (pdf).


German / Deutsch: I Ging - Das Buch der Wandlungen (pdf). English: I Ching (epub).


Russian / Русский: Л.Л.Сабанеев - Воспоминания о Скрябине (L.Sabaneev - Reminiscences of Scriabin) (pdf).


English: Andrei Tarkovsky - Sculpting in Time (pdf). Russian / Русский: А.А.Тарковский - Запечатленное время (epub).


S. Salvestroni. Dostoevskij e la Bibbia (рус. пер.: Библейские и святоотеческие источники романов Достоевского. СПб., 2001). Biella, 2000 .


Russian / Русский: Ф.М.Достоевский - Братья Карамазовы (epub). English: F.Dostoevsky - The Brothers Karamazov (epub).


German / Deutsch: F.Schiller - Die Räuber (epub).


English: H.P.Lovecraft - Complete Works (pdf).